When things don't go my way...

I got sick last weekend- headache, dizzy, weak. Put myself to bed as best I could with lots of Vitamin C and liquids. Shook it by Tuesday.

Thursday I did weight training and pulled a muscle.. REALLY bad. I was in pain for days, limping, could not sleep, could not get out of the car! Rested it as best I could. But Tuesday it was almost normal.

Tuesday I caught another, different cold! I have it now. I am miserable. Throat is on fire, headache, dripping nose... weak, no energy.

Dh is out of town.

The monitor on my computer broke. I have to mail it in to be repaired- estimate is 3 weeks. I can't even see what is in my computer to find email addresses. I have very limited access to this other computer, so may not be on much.

What is God telling me? Maybe nothing. Maybe just be the way things are. But I had a plan.... Advent plans,, plans to lose 10 pounds by Dec 31 (hard to do if I have not worked out in a week.. looks like that may extend to two..) had planned... baking, etc. Low key, but they were there. Also my side of the family is all excited because we are suppoosed to drive to my parents' Christmas day and meet my brother et al. What if my cold runs through the house? Do I make sick kids go? I will have major guilt if we don't go.

Reading Leonie's post here about failing. I am thinking... how much of it for me is planning my way and then stressing when things don't do my way?

I know my prayer life needs help, too. Why is it i am farthest from it when I need it most?

I talked to a friend yesterday who I had not touched base with in a while. Mostly I didn't call her b/c i have had a rough couple of weeks. Didn't want to whine. I found out she had a really bad time, too. It felt so GOOD to realize each other was going through this.. and make that connection. I think I will call her again today.

Leonie- thinking of you.. and I can relate so much. I will try to get over to your blog while I have this computer, too.

Hugs to all--- give yourself lots of love and space. That is what I am going to try and do. I feel much better just typing this out!